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When you keep a feeling locked up inside of you for the fear of it coming out and hurting someone you love you only hurt yourself. I woke up very depressed on Friday, it was almost physical pain, and it felt like I had extra 20 pounds to carry around. I was trying to shake it off, and it was just weighing me down like a stone tied to my ankle and pulling me down to the depth of the dark, cold water. I knew deep down the exact reason for this horrible feeling, but it was not formed into the words yet. I was trying to mute it, I did not want to hear it, but my conscious would not allow it to be ignored. When I came in to work, I thought it would be easier for me to push it down, the next thing I knew I was typing away in my blog, and that’s how my previous post was born. The feelings were just pouring out of me like a vomit trying to get rid of the poison in the body. It helped me a lot, when I was finished writing I felt lighter, but the deep feeling of dread did not go away. I co...

Today started out like a regular Friday, nothing special. My day started as usual with my daily routine, when I got to work, I started checking my FB to see what new posts my friends posted, and I came across one interesting post, that stirred up a lot of emotions. I actually waited till afternoon to write my post here, had to get my emotion settle, before I was able to write Here is the article in question At first what caught my eye was the word " gaslighting ", I had no clue what it meant, so I proceeded to click on the link, mind you, it was like 7:30 in the morning, and I do not drink coffee :). So I finish reading this article, and it has me almost in tears by the end of it. Ok, I do admit that I am feeling a little bit more emotional than usual at this time of the month, but still...   I am married second time around, and my first husband was verbally abusive to me, and I married him when I was 18, very impressionable at that young age. Its really hard t...